I had an individual session with my mentor Bahia Askri (universalhuman.ca) yesterday. I have been working with her through a Mentorship called Shine Your Light for a year and a half. I was called to work with her, since I wanted to open up to my multi-dimensional Self, continuing the work that I started with IFS therapy, but that would take me further into the higher realms of Self. What is great about Bahia is that she is not only clairvoyant and intuitive, she also is sure to include our shadow. So we don’t bypass the parts of us resisting, keeping us small.

Even before the session while Bahia was preparing and smudging the room, she was aware of an aspect of myself that was in a temple of knowledge and wisdom that I was ready to connect with. She asked me how that feels in my body and continued to asks if there were any parts of me that were resisting. I felt an energy behind my body that doesn’t think I can have spiritual experiences. When she asked what it looked like it came to me that it was a bull, representing my German roots, especially being in a specific social status, where everything is rule-bound, focused on worldly success. Once I started looking at the bull, it shrank in size and eventually transformed into a condor. Bahia asked a couple of times if there was anything else holding me back. I noticed a little girl in front. She said if I could take her on the condor to take us up to the temple. I thought yes.

Parts of me were thinking, really? How is this supposed to work? But Bahia drummed, toned into my body, and I let go of control as best I could, I could feel a pull upwards. The more I was relaxed and not worried about what would happen next, the more I was expanding. I felt much bigger than my physical body. I felt support from unseen beings.

Connecting to the higher aspect of me, felt like opening to some golden cone shaped force. A lot more steady and calm than my usual human self.